My mind has been blank recently. Void of all creativity. It seems that with the winter weather that we have been having, I have gone into hibernation mode. Maybe that is what happens during a long, cold, snowy winter. More than likely, it's what happens when one is faced with an ill child. Forgive me my lack of posting as of late; even coming up with a topic other than cancer in which to discuss is impossible at the moment.
It's strange, really, since I have gotten back into the swing of "life". It's a life that revolves around cancer, certainly, but it isn't all hospital stays and tests at the moment. You would think that I would be able to return to a sense of normalcy
The flow of meals being given to us has dropped drastically so I actually managed a shopping trip last week. It was strange to have cancer even intrude on something as simple as grocery shopping: my thought throughout the trip was "Will Jacob eat this? Is it fattening and will it help him gain some weight?" Even grocery shopping stops being simple when cancer is in the picture.
It isn't all doom and gloom. There are moments that are normal. The kids still get into their normal squabbles, when we sit on the couch and watch a movie it feels normal, when we cook or play games it feels normal. Jacob has been doing all these things this week. If you look past his bald little head you would find a feisty, hungry, playful boy this week. For this I am thankful. His counts are good right now, though expected to drop this week or next as that is the timeline for this type of chemo he received last week. He has energy. He tires a bit more easily but he is bouncing off the walls just as much as Becca and Joe. His appetite has increased by leaps and bounds, probably due to the steroid he was put on for that very purpose.
No, life is not normal; but moments in our life are. I'll take that for now.